Our Story

First let me start by saying how blessed I am to have a mighty God, a wonderful husband and supportive family that has helped me get through the roller coaster that has been the few years of my live. I have been married to my high school sweetheart for almost 6 years now, we have been together for 10, and we have a sweet little puppy named Diesel that has been our world for the past 5 years. Jared and I decided about 3 years ago that it was time we added onto our family and bring a new life into the world. We were so excited about trying for a baby and that soon became all we talked about. After a while it seemed to consume our lives and we became overwhelmed with confusion, frustration and bitterness. We wanted to know why it came so easy for all our friends and not us. After having exploratory surgery and different procedures than left us with no answers, we looked into infertility treatments. We chose to do an IUI, which the infertility doctor felt was all we needed, and the hope we had soon turned into disappointed when we had complications during the procedure and it didn't work. We went the next month to try again, and had the same complications we had the month prior. The small amount of hope we had was crushed when he told us that that would be the last time we could do that procedure because of the complications, and the possibility of IVF was out as well. This was our last shot and we both knew it. After years of taking pregnancy test after pregnancy test I knew I couldn't get my hopes up. I woke Jared up on the morning I took the test and we prayed as we waited for the results.......POSITIVE!!! We both cried with joy and disbelief. We had waited for so long and our prayers had been answered. A couple weeks later we went to the doctor for the first ultrasound not knowing what was in store for us when we got there. The doctor started the ultrasound and saw the little tiny peanut there on the screen with a heartbeat and said "everything looks good, one little happy healthy baby.....wait....wait we have an intruder". I was a little confused by his comment until I looked at Jared's face. I asked if he meant 2 and he said yes he did! Twins! I think I would have been less shocked if he would have started doing the chicken dance right there in front of me! So, Jared and I started planning out how life would be with twins (like you can actually plan that out!). We were so excited and scared to death all at the same time! We had spent weeks looking forward to the day we would have the ultrasound that would tell us what we were having. When that day came things went much differently than we ever thought they would. One of the most special days in our lives was replaced with one of the most terrifying. We found out that we were having two little girls and one may be very sick. Her body was measuring in the 3rd percentile while her head was in the 18th. The doctors said that she had strong markers for a chromosome disorder such as Downs Syndrome or much worse Trisomy 18 or 13 which would give her only a 10% chance of living a year after birth if she survived the pregnancy. We chose to do an amniocentesis on both babies which would show us if either baby had these problems. When we went home we decided that if something was wrong with one of the babies we wanted them to have name instead of just referring to them as baby a and baby b. Within about 30 minutes we came up with the most perfect names...it was like they were just meant to be. The small baby would be named Trinity and the larger baby would be named Telan. We waited what seemed like an eternity for the results and we got the phone call telling us both girls checked out just fine! Praise God! Now we just needed to find out why she was measuring so small. On our next trip to the doctor’s office we faced even more possible bad news. There could be a placenta problem that was causing Trinity not to grow, which is called intrauterine growth restriction (IUGR) or she could just be a small baby. If it was IUGR then she would more than likely not make it past 26 weeks. We had to make a very though decision, if we continued to go to the doctor's office regularly like we had been doing we may have to make the decision to deliver extremely early and put the larger baby (Telan) at risk tying to save the smaller baby (Trinity) or we wait until 26 weeks to come back to the doctor's office and let nature take it's course. Jared and I were both in agreement that the odds of both babies surviving outside the womb prior to 26 weeks especially with one being very small was not a chance we were willing to take. We felt like by waiting until 26 weeks to get another ultrasound it would mean we wouldn’t have to make anymore decisions about the fate of our children…it was all left in God’s hands. So at our 26 week appointment we knew there was a possibility that the ultrasound would show that Trinity didn't make it, but she also could be growing and developing like a normal baby. As it turned out, we had to make another difficult decision, Trinity had not grown much and she had absence of flow through her umbilical cord. This confirmed that there was definitely a problem and she wasn’t just a normal small baby. They explained that the next step was reversed blood flow through the cord and then death. We were told there was a good chance she wouldn’t make it another week and if we wanted to save her now was the time. Jared and I were torn, we felt as though we were having to choose which life was more valuable between our two children. After much prayer and research, we both had a strong feeling that we needed to wait and try to give them more time to grow and develop and God would take care of the rest. The next appointment at 27 weeks did show reversed blood flow and it seemed that now was the time to choose. We both still had a gut feeling that we needed to wait. So the plan was to take it week by week. Every week we had an ultrasound and every week we struggled to decide what to do. The one thing we did know was that Trinity is a fighter because every Monday when we went in for the ultrasound to see if she was still hanging on, there she was! The doctor’s continued to tell us every time she probably wouldn’t make it another week, but she continues to surprise them. We have been told that they truly didn’t think she would make it this far and that she is not a “textbook case”…and we know that. Both of our miracle babies are strong little girls who God has apparently chosen to carry out his will.